The past few months have been a time of uncertainty, upheaval, reflection, living with the unknown, trusting and flowing love for all of us. I count my blessings in health, my loved ones, the technology that enables us to connect and the ability to work from home. From my perspective, extremes are showing themselves in behaviours and situations, which are adding to an awful lot of noise out there, making life an emotional roller-coaster to navigate. Yet, there are gifts in the way barriers, armour, subterfuge, veils, spin and deceit are being stripped away.

Without detail or judgment, a pattern of upsetting behaviour from my landlady has peaked. It is not personal as she behaves this way with everybody and up until now, I have chosen not to tackle it, thereby allowing it. Over the last three years, I have reassured family and friends that I can handle it and prided myself on being able to slip under her radar. There was a moment recently when all veils were stripped away and it was clear that enough was enough. I see it as a gift from lockdown.

My research and exploring online led me to a landlord who is professional, thoughtful and listens. When I found him and we spoke over the telephone, I kept the details brief, he asked insightful questions, pondered and made a suggestion. He felt the original place I was enquiring about was not right for me. However, there was a home his company are currently renovating and he suggested I could view it in our allocated thirty minutes a day outside for exercise, as it was empty.

It is self-contained, private, spacious, light-filled, with its own South facing walled garden, space to create, work and write, in a lovely area with a thriving community, all amenities within walking distance including the Irish Sea, nearer to my buddies and quiet. As I looked around and discovered all it had to offer, my heart started a joyful song. Afterwards, I sat outside in the car and rang him, when he caught my delighted gratitude and I felt his.

I can move on my own, observing social distancing and not putting anyone else at risk and that will happen in just under a months time.

Staying here and not tackling things out of fear, blocked so much and I can see that now. I used to call this ‘my happy bubble’ being next to the water and with the loving connections of neighbours. Nothing happens in isolation and with me thinking I could handle it, that draining energy leaked into everything and the air in my bubble became unhealthy. I have always said to those who seek my help; when a change is needed then life will squeeze you in that situation, till you can see it. The way this has unfolded and the abundance that has started to flow from the flash of insight is humbling.

How others behave is their choice. How others feel about us is their business. How we react and the choices we make are ours.

I am grateful and flowing love to you all. <3

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  1. Wonderful read Jane…. It often takes us to the brink of one final push in a situation before we react.. And we can be very tolerant of others… But I see like you do, all happens for a reason and when the time is right..
    So happy you have found such a wonderfully sounding place with a south facing garden that also you can build into your own sanctuary.. The locality of your amenities also sounds just right…
    Perfect!!….. πŸ™‚ No wonder that Song leapt into your heart Jane…
    Keep Singing my lovely friend… Who knows you and Hubby could make a duo… hahaha….. LOL…
    Big smiles… Feel your relief, and weight lifted…
    Love and Hugs your way ????????????????

    1. I am laughing out loud over here, Sue. A duet…whey hey, with maybe some percussion from the garden tools… <3 Yes, a relief and a weight lifted. <3 I have an idea which I will share in my monthly newsletter. I feel it is all connected and life is being shuffled to manifest. It feels all about connection and care for each other and this wonderful planet. <3 <3 flowing to you both and 'Thank you' from all my heart for you. <3 <3

      1. Hahaha… Hubby just woke up and I explained our conversation, We are all laughing out Loud here too….. He’s just gone down to green house Singing, We’ll, drink, a drink, a drink, to lily the pink….. the pink the pink…. hahaha…. Laughter good for the soul… LOVE and Huge hugs… <3

          1. πŸ™‚ I discovered the little box on my computer a couple of years ago its a touch key pad logo.. When activated it brings up all kinds of emoji… πŸ™‚

  2. Change is hard… but this sounds like a wonderful decision for you. Take your time moving and good luck my friend. Stay safe… stay well!

  3. Realizing we have control over how we respond to people makes like life so much easier, doesn’t it? I’m so happy for you, Jane. I’ll be anxious to hear more about your new home. It sounds wonderful. <3

    1. Thank you, lovely Jill for your kind thoughts. I could be starting a gardening blog on progress, as it’s a lawn right now and little else. Such fun… Much <3 flowing to you all. Xx

  4. Had no idea you were dealing with a difficult landlord, Jane. So glad this opened up for you as it sounds idyllic. Certainly wouldn’t have happened if you hadn’t finally drawn a line in the sand with the poor behavior you were allowing. Also glad you got to stay near the water. It’s cathartic. Keep us posted!

    1. Thanks, my Bro and yes, I didn’t want to be parted from my lovely friends here, or the water. I will be near the Irish Sea this time and can watch all the intrepid souls sand surf in their dune kites. I’m not sure what it’s called, but they fly across the beach there. Much <3 flowing to you both., always. <3

  5. Oh wonderful! A place with a walled garden where you can thrive and grow like the flowers <3 I wish you much happiness in your new home – and with the Irish Sea nearby; what's not to like!
    Lots of big hugs and <3 <3 xxXXxx

  6. Dearest Jane, I am quite sure that the ‘new’ you will be waiting with open arms in this beautiful place! There comes a time when we must turn our face to the sun and let loose the troubles that would devour us over time. <3 I love you!

  7. Great Jane, your message is upliftingly joyful in this time of shut-downs and personal isolation. Only you could turn a crusty landlady into a message of love and hope! Moves can be times of stress so I wish you all the best as you clean out the old and move to the new.

  8. petespringerauthor

    Nobody wants that negative energy n their life. I’m glad you have found a more suitable situation, Jane.

  9. You constantly awe me, Jane,
    You are resilient, creative and it’s a joy to see you soar.
    I can feel the excitement in your words and I respond
    with such positive vibes which I’m sending your way.
    Wishing you many blessings in your new home.

  10. I’m so happy for you, Jane, and look forward to hearing about your new “happy bubble.” You ended this lovely post so neatly and spoken with truth. Our reactions and choices are ours to be responsible for and to own up to. It’s not always easy to react how we should though. But there are always brand new chances for us to try again.
    Sending much love, peace, and many hugs. Lauren ????????

    1. Hello lovely Lauren and thank you for your thoughtful comment. Yes, we are grateful for each day that gifts us space to try again. Much <3 flowing to you all, always. <3 Xxx

  11. I’m so excited and happy for you! What a relief it must be. This reminds me of when I retired from my 30 year career. The last ten years became increasingly difficult with increased demands. It’s surprising what we put up with, telling ourselves we’re strong and we can handle it, and we can, until it’s time to make that leap to a better place. There must be a purpose in the challenge, the waiting, if at least to make us appreciate the better place more. Enjoy your new adventures!

    1. Thank you, lovely JoAnne. Yes, there must be gifts in the waiting. We all do things in our own sweet time, don’t we? Here’s to new adventures. Much <3 flowing to you both, always. Xx <3

  12. I am happy to hear about your new door opening Jane! And one thing in particular stood out to me what you said – when change needs to come, it will push you right in it – so true! Wishing you lots of everything in whats sounds the perfect home Hugs flowing <3 xxo

  13. Goodness, what a blessing you found somewhere so lovely so quickly – and during lock down too. Having, as you know, just completed my own move right before lock down began, I’ve been wondering if anyone is able to continue with their own relocations, and now I find you are doing just that! Well done for making the decision, it sounds like you will be much happier where you are going – sending you distance support from Scotland, as you supported me through all my troubles <3
    Oh, and I look forward to photos of your garden once you have your plans underway.

    1. Thank you, for your kind thoughts, Debby. <3 I am looking forward to your veggie plot pictures and as I close my eyes I can see your view.
      Synchronicity flowed instantly, as soon as I made the decision to end the upset here. It validated everything. I am planning the move with socisl distancing and the lockdown and all is flowing well there too. I may be a tad tired at the end of it, but I can manage most things myself. Onwards, as us girls always do. <3

  14. What luck, Jane, to have found a nice new home and very nice landlord. You are so right, we can’t change how others behave but we should set boundaries and say that we won’t tolerate disrespectful behaviour. And now, everything has worked out so well for you. Toni x

    1. Thank you for your kind thoughts, Toni. You are lovely. Yes, the universe has flowed in a wave of love around this decision. Planning it with the current rules in place just needs a bit of careful thought and all is going well. Much love flowing to you all. <3

  15. Have fun in your new bubble, darlint, an’ once yer in the clear me and the boys’ll go an’ sort out the ole witch for yer, yeah? I mean, some of the ole ‘two coats of clean white paint, an’ at. Apply it in person, like.
    Sounds great, Jane. Enjoy your new vibe and your new home. I love the idea of that garden!

    1. Ohh my creative buddy, cheers for your unstinting support and the white painted giggles. The garden is a blank canvas of overgrown lawn and bluebells and I will love every minute in it. <3 Just think of all that rested earth. I can rest there too and shake these shackles off. Whey hey…. Much <3 flowing to you both, across The Pennines. <3 Xx

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